So after the initial fluster of finding out that people thought I was pregnant wore off,  and I thought it about it more, I realized that most of you dont know whats going on. I have always been pretty open with the fact that I cant have kids. Most of you probably know that, but I'm sure some don't since I don't talk to all of you everyday.

When I as 16 my doctor told me I most likely wouldn't have kids, or it would be really hard. At 16, I thought I new everything, and these doctors were lying and just had to say that because their doctors. Every doctor after that always brought it up. You know like it was some type of fun fact. So I am now about to turn 25 and sadly the doctors haven't changed their tune. The best option I have is fertility treatments, and I dont know if any of you have used those, or know anything about it. But the biggest thing you need to know- is they are A LOT of money, and insurance companies dont cover it. It seems odd, that they would cover birth control and even pregnancies once you got pregnant, but not actually helping you get pregnant. Also, if you use fertility treatments and have a miscarriage the doctor bills or hospital visits that occur are also not paid for. Isn't that just lovely? :)

So when I say expensive, I'm not saying like a couple hundred dollars- I'm talking THOUSANDS of dollars that you have to pay the day of the appointment. So its not like cars, where I can buy a $15,000 car and make payments every month, nope I have to have that $15,000 the day of the appointment. Do you know anyone that just graduated from college that has that kind of money lying around?

So Eric and I are on the saving money route right now. The doctors told us that my treatment plan will cost AT LEAST $12,000. So we are saving saving saving, however we also have an MBA school to save for as well. So unless we stumble upon a treasure map that will lead us to a treasure chest full of gold, or we get a miracle we wont be having kids anytime soon.

I dont tell all of you this to feel bad or anything- like I said, I am really open about this. I wanted all my friends to know- I know there are some of you out there going through the same thing, and its nice to know your not a lone.

So that is the low down on me and my uterus.  Currently Vacant

Love ya,
Hillary

Since it is Sunday - it means that Eric watches sports on mute while I play the piano and sing. Today's theme was Musicals. I haven't sung them in awhile, so it started with Wicked, then went to Les Mis, and finally ended with Phantom of the Opera. At the end of this, I wanted to watch Phantom, so I checked Netflix, sadly nothing, so Eric checked to see if it would be coming on to TV. This was our converstaion:

Eric: Do you know what year Phantom came out?
Me: Um... I was in high school, it was while I was in Vocal Jazz, so like 2004?
Eric: That is a random way of remember it.
Me: Well I can remember discussing if we thought it was good and such
Eric: You  remember the strangest things.

Ok I know that was probaly really boring to you. But here is the part where my mind is BLOWN! Eric found the movie and said, its the one with Gerald Butler right? I was like.. um... I think I would remember Gerald Butler in the movie its not him. I of course went to IMDB and looked, and Gerald Butler is indeed in Phantom of the Opera... he is the Phantom!

He is hot and he sings!!! I love him even more!! My mind is blown. I cant believe it!

So today I got the last canvas to complete my set of 4. Aren't they beautiful? 

For Christmas my family got a new family computer (cough cough) Andrew got a new computer. :) I love him though. So because they already had 2 computers, that means Eric and I also got a new Computer. :) It got here this week, and i have LOVED playing on it! Its on our dining table, because well lets face it. We only have 2 chairs for the table so its not getting used. Perfect place where I can work and watch TV at the same time!

This week, we also got our first Snow Storm in Wisconsin. I must say I am rather upset, as what classifies as a Storm Warning. Today we are going to get 1-3 inches in 36 hours, and that is a storm warning. REALLY?! That is pathetic. Anywho. Its pretty to look at but not fun to be out in. It was only 1 degree this morning when Eric went to work. And yes, that is snow on our COVERED porch.

Lastly, we got Eric's Mission Book I made. As well as some canvas' I made too.  Eric's book is AMAZING. Its a 12x12 hardbound book. I think that is all we got this week- BUT it is also only Wednesday! So who knows what other great things lay in store for the rest of the week?

I dont know about any of you, but 2011 was a tough year, and I focused a lot on the things I couldn't do. When we moved to Wisconsin, I no longer could go to school, I couldn't go to Nordstrom. Yes, it is 3.5 hours away. :( I have a long list of things that I cant do. I dont know when I decided this, but I decided I am going to start focusing on the things I CAN do. So my theme for 2012 is I CAN. I have 3 New Years Resolutions and they all are things I CAN do.

1. Run A Marathon.

And not just ANY marathon- the Chicago Marathon. Why? Because I Can spend HOURS at the gym. My dad runs marathons- he and my mom ran the Chicago a few years ago, they also ran Hood to Coast. So I decided to join them. No I have never run a marathon, 5 k, or anything like that before. But I have 10 months to get ready!

2. Become a Scriptorian.

I have always loved diving into the scriptures, not just reading them, but really understanding them. The picture above is a page from Isaiah. I am currently reading the entire book of Isaiah, and I LOVE it! Like I said, I'm not just reading it, because lets face it, who would understand Isaiah that way? I have my bible dictionary, an actual dictionary, and a book on Isaiah and Jewish culture. It is AMAZING! My next book, is Revelations. I may not be able to go to school, but I CAN make the scriptures my school.


3. Try New Recipes- Master Cooking

Eric puts in this way- I know how to cook, I just dont. I dont like cooking for 2 people. It sucks! Especially since I don't like leftovers. So I usually cook 3 meals, and then the rest of the week, I just grab some frozen dinner. I do know how to bake. I am the MASTER of baking. My favorite aisle is the baking aisle. But, if I am going to run that Marthon, I need to eat better. You should also know, that I watch the Food Network channel every single day. I feel pretty confident that I can follow their directions and make what they make. I am also accepting recipes from friends. If you have any email them to me!


So those are my 3 Resolutions. I figure if I can focus on the things I CAN do, then 2012 will be a better year, because I will have a Positive Attitude, and accomplishing things that I want to do, and will have time to really focus on them.

The last couple flights I have taken with Eric, they have had to inspect his bag, and not because they found a liquid. What may you ask would Eric carry that would need to get checked out? Well on you way home from Hawaii TSA could NOT figure out what was showing on the screen, they described it to us as a box with little chips or something in it. We thought for a moment, and realized they were talking about our Dominos.

Our flight to Seattle for Christmas, Erics bag had to be inspected again, why? Because he had a bag of Cheese in his carry on.

And finally our flight back to Wisconsin, Erics bag had to be checked again. Why? Because he had golf balls in his carry on.

Reminder to self- Eric packs interesting things in his carry on and will be stopped. Plan extra time. :)